Update

I apologize for the gaps in my blog.

Since I posted last, much has occurred:

While still teaching, I have taken a Sabbatical from coaching this spring. I have taken the time to work on my professional life, tutoring over at the San Diego State Community Reading Clinic and working to finish up my Reading Specialist Credential. I should have everything complete by end of 2014.

I have enjoyed spending more time with Christine! This has been a blessing for sure!

In February, Christine and I delivered the inspirational speech at the Annual Mass of Hope. The transcript of the speech is below:

Fr. Clavin, Members of the Family Cancer Support Ministry, Parishioners, Family, and Guests, thank you for joining us tonight for the 5^th Annual Mass of Hope. With humility, Christine and I are honored to share with you our journey with cancer and our experience with the Family Cancer Support Ministry.

Please join us in acknowledging the members of this wonderful ministry (please stand to be recognized).

*Before we continue, I’d like to share with you that I saw my doctor today and am happy to report that I am doing well!

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You have cancer. 

Words that no one wants to hear. Words that strike fear into the hearts to whom the statement is delivered. Words that strike fear into the minds of the ones who love and care for those who have it.

Karl Menninger, famous psychiatrist, stated that “the very word ‘cancer’ is said to kill some patients who would not have succumbed (so quickly) to the malignancy from which they suffer.”

While cancer is diagnosable and discernible as a biological mutation through medical examinations and tests, the very label itself embodies a frame of mind that often determines life and death. Hearing the word “cancer” is sometimes worse than the actual disease itself.

During the year following my diagnosis, cancer was all Christine and I talked about. It was, as St. John of the Cross described, our Dark Night. Doctors’ appointments, medical insurance, prescriptions, side effects from my treatment. Every ache was magnified into another aspect of cancer. I’d come home and dump all my frustrations, anger, angst, and fear on Christine. While Christine was supportive and understanding, one day she had enough and turned to share her frustrations, anger, angst, and fear with me. She had held onto these feelings for a long time because she believed that her feelings couldn’t compare to the one who had cancer. If I couldn’t share with my wife, with whom could I share? But I was being selfish. If she couldn’t share with me, with whom could she share?

The conversation sticks vividly in our memories:

Do we have to talk about the fact that you have cancer again? Isn’t there anything else we can talk about?

You are my wife, I should be able to share my frustrations with you about living with cancer.

Okay, you are my husband, and I should be able to share my frustrations with you about you sharing your frustrations with me about living with cancer.

We looked at each other, paused, and realized that for the sake of our relationship something had to change.

It was important for Andrew to talk with someone who understood what it was to have cancer (thank you, Will Hurley), dealing with treatment and side effects, while contemplating the mortality of the whole experience. Only someone who has had cancer, is battling cancer, or, like him, is living with cancer can relate to what that means.

It was important for me (Christine) to speak with someone who understood what it was to live with someone with cancer (thank you, Mary Brewer). To understand why someone who was normally positive and full of life was now intermittently depressed and angry, or often sullen and quiet.

We started attending the Cancer Support Ministry by chance about six months before this conversation after we were invited by two friends (Erin and Andy Mangahis) to attend mass at St. Gregory’s. In the bulletin on that day was a notice about the cancer support ministry.

Through the cancer support ministry, we learned to embrace cancer as an opportunity to love life, to love God, to love nature, and to love each other and our families each and every day.  And through the cancer support ministry, we emerged from our Dark Night to discover the radiant love of God and family around us.

To have hope, one’s vision cannot be dark and uncertain. One has to make a choice to embrace life, love, and forgiveness, and to live each day with intent and purpose. We learned what about life was worth living for. 

We look forward to offering support and encouragement to others who may have the diagnosis of cancer thrust upon them. Cancer is, after all, a family illness.

  

Cancer is not a death sentence.

Cancer is not the end of the world.

Cancer is not the focus of our lives.

Yes, we have cancer.

But it doesn’t have us.

Thank you. God be with you.

Dr. Zu has been out of town on vacation, so I haven't seen him since February. I am hoping to talk to him this week to find out the results of my latest blood work. My body is fighting something, and will feel better when I had a chance to talk to him.  I have maintained my weight thanks in large part to good eating and a great appetite.

I am looking forward to vacation at the end of March. Time to re-create, re-charge, and to re-juvenate!

All my best.

Scan and Scan Results!

Hi All,

I had a CT scan of my chest, abdomen, and pelvis as well as an MRI of my brain (of my brain)(of my brain)(of my brain) on Tuesday, 26 November 2013. The most difficult part of the procedure is the waiting. Upon arrival for the scan, I am given a solution of Crystal Light with a radioactive marker that I have to drink and let sit for one hour. Prior to scan, Hiromi (gee, isn't it great that I am on a first name basis with the staff!) places an IV in my arm so that the radiologist can easily administer a contrast during the scans. Fortunately, she is good at her job! I had the CT scan first followed by the MRI. The MRI is loud. I typically listen for hidden messages in the knocking the machine makes. I swear I now know where Jimmy Hoffa is buried as well as who Carly Simon was singing about in "You're So Vain." (I'd tell you, but I signed a waiver prior to my scans prohibiting me from doing so.).

While I typically have to wait until my next appointment with Dr. Zu to find out the results, Grace (I love that her name is Grace, by the way), Dr. Zu's assistant, called to give me the good news that my scan results look good. No change since my last scan! Hoo Hoo!

So, Happy Happy Thanksgiving to all! I am grateful for your love, encouragement, and friendship!

Here's to a great holiday season!

All my love,

Andrew

Next Up: Appointment with Dr. Zu on December 17!

Progress Update

Hello All! Hard to believe that the school year has gone so quickly.

I saw Dr. Zu yesterday, Tuesday, 19 November 2013, for my monthly appointment and Sandostatin shot (can't forget about that!).

He says I am doing well. My weight is up 2 pounds and my vitals look good. My WBC, while low from the Afinitor, is stable. Because I have had a head cold forEVER, he checked my lungs and reported that all is clear.

I was hoping that I'd get one of the hot nurses to give me my shot, but, alas, Ray was the only nurse available to administer the gluteal dose. Not to worry, I am blessed to have a hot wife at home!

I have much to be thankful for this year: Christine, my beautiful wife, my friends, my job, and my family. Blessings to all at this time!

Next up: CT and MRI on November 26 to assess treatment efficacy.

Thanks for all of your love, encouragement, and positivity.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Progress Update

I have been remiss in updating my blog. 

The school year started and things went from crazy to crazier!

I am well! I am running regularly, although not as much in the last 10 days or so because I am "run" down. (Sorry, I could not avoid the pun!).

I am teaching five classes: 4 English classes and AVID. And coaching, too. All is going well.

On to my health:

Lastest scan (August) shows that I am stable. No tumor growth! Hoo Hoo!

I saw Dr. Zu today. My vitals are good. Weight is up from last month (1 pound) and my vitals are good. My WBC is low, but stable for me. No real surprises.

I received my monthly injection of Sandostatin. Guess I won't be sitting on my left side for a few days! HA! And I continue to take Afinitor daily. 

Dr. Zu talked to me about training for the Carlsbad Marathon. I suggested he contact Jim Maxwell, a good friend who has run 75+ marathons, for a training plan. 

I find it funny that they don't make cancer patients pay for parking. Guess it pays to have cancer! (Okay, I had to throw that in there...).

Thanks for your continued support and encouragement!

Next up: Appointment with Dr. Zu on October 22. Until then, live, laugh, love!

Update on my progress

Hi All,

Saw Dr. Zu on July 30.

Good news! My blood work looks good and I am maintaining my weight. Got my monthly injection of Sandostatin, and will have a CT scan and an MRI on August 6 to determine efficacy of my treatment.

I am doing great!
Running regularly, working out with Mark, and loving my wife, Christine!

Thank you for your continued love and support!

Progress Update

Hi All,

Saw Dr. Zu on July 2 for my monthly appointment.
My numbers look good. I am maintaining my weight, my WBC, while a bit low, is stable, and I am maintaining an active schedule, running about 40 miles a week.
I also got my monthly injection of Sandostatin.

Next up:
Blood work on July 26.
Appointment with Zu on July 30.
Scans to assess treatment efficacy will be in August.

Thanks for you support and encouragement.

All my best!

Update on Progress

Hi All,

I am doing well.

Finished up another school year today with a professional development day. Looking forward to getting our cross country summer training program off the ground.

I will tutoring for 4 hours a week this summer at the SDSU Literacy Clinic.

I had a Sandostatin treatment on June 4th. Dr. Zu is in China on vacation, so I did not see him.

Next up: appointment on July 2nd.

Thanks for the encouragement and support!

Update on Progress

Hi All,

Doing well. Finally past the bad cold I had. Fortunately, it never progressed into my chest, although I was coughing so violently that I suffered from inflammation in my chest and abdomen. Much of that has dissipated as well.

I saw Dr. Zu on May 7th. Good report! Vitals look good and I am up 1 pound since last month! Hoo Hoo!
I got my usual injection of Sandostatin which I seem to tolerate well these days. Funny how I now accept these shots without blinking. Another month, another shot in the buttocks! HA!

Thanks for all of your encouragement and positive energy!

Next up: Sandostatin injection on June 4. Zu will be in China so I won't see him again until July.

Update on Progress

Good news!
Saw Dr. Zu yesterday, 9 April, for regular follow-up appointment.
Scan results from 3 April show no growth in tumors! I continue to remain stable on the Afinitor and Sandostatin!

Despite fighting a bad cold, my WBC is higher this month than last and my vitals are good. I am also maintaining my weight which is always a struggle.

Although I am struggling to kick this cold, I am pleased and encouraged by these results.

I received my monthly infusion of Sandostatin yesterday.

Next appointment with Dr. Zu is 7 May.

Thanks to all for your continued prayers, support, and encouragement.

Progress Update

Hi All,

Sorry for the delay in posting a progress update.

Saw Dr. Zu on March 12. Good report: weight is up 2 lbs. from last month! WBC looks good - still low, but within an acceptable range. Zu thinks I am doing great. I also received a Sandostatin treatment. I am tolerating the treatment well, save for some minor side effects.

I continue to take Afinitor daily and, like the Sandostatin, I am tolerating the medication well.
For those unfamiliar with Afinitor, here is what I take it for:


AFINITOR is a kinase inhibitor indicated for the treatment of:

• adults with progressive neuroendocrine tumors of pancreatic origin (PNET)
that are unresectable, locally advanced or metastatic. The safety and
effectiveness of AFINITOR in the treatment of patients with carcinoid
tumors have not been established. (1.2)

• pediatric and adult patients with tuberous sclerosis complex (TSC) who
have subependymal giant cell astrocytoma (SEGA) that requires
therapeutic intervention but cannot be curatively resected. The
effectiveness is based on demonstration of durable objective response, as
evidenced by reduction in SEGA tumor volume. Improvement in disease related
symptoms and overall survival in patients with SEGA and TSC has
not been demonstrated. (1.5)

Next up:

CT Scan of chest, abdomen, and pelvis on April 3.
Blood work on April 5.
Appointment with Dr. Zu on April 9.

I am doing great. Now that track season has settled down a bit, I have gotten back to running regularly. Christine and I love each other immensely, I love my job, and am surrounded by wonderful people every day.

Thanks to all for your continued prayers, encouragement, friendship, and support.

Christine and I at the Elmer Runge Classic Invite on her birthday, March 16.