Got monthly injection of
Sandostatin (Octreotide) on Thursday. Experiencing typical stomach issues and minor irritation at injection site. Par for the course. Immodium helps as does fiber supplement. These side effects usually dissipate after a few days.
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Geeze I hate that you are going through all of this. My Grams passed away a few years back, she was in and out of chemo and radiation(started treatment when she was about 87, my senior yr. HS) She battle the little sickness every year, some days were better and others made me question God, that she so loved. Why would god make her suffer? she had suffered her whole life and lived for kindness and forgiveness, why did she have to endure so much horrid blinding pain? Our family turned dark for a few years knowing that she was too weak to keep going through the treatment and the cancer was too fast to slow down. By my 2nd year in the navy I was in and out to sea doing work ups to get the "Great George H. W. Bush” ready for deployment. My family called and called but with minimal details of my gramie health, knowing that I would be in tears in seconds. It was hard to be away. On a ship of 3,000 I felt completely lost in my anger and sadness. I hardly ate and slept. The long days became longer and I just questioned life. Another call came, my mother sounded off, this time she spoke of my father, my daddieo, his hepatitis was acting up and the treatment was killing him, interferon. Later that month, my duty day, my mother called and told me I had to find a way to come home....I went home the next day...Gramie died 5 days later....looking at my family that circled her still body the tears fell from their faces and I stood silently over my grandmother. I was there when the blood in her body went cold, I hated death, anger heated my eyes so no tears could escape. My mother said I was being so strong, I wasn't being strong, all it was was pure hate for my grandmother’s beloved GOD. It took me a while to really understand why the most cherished loved ones in our lives suffer the most horrid pains To me it's because these are the ones who have to endure life hardest challenges, they are our heroes, they are the ones that battle the big dark evil monsters, they are the ones that fight the war for us to learn the great lesson. The lessons I learned from my grandmother Virginia will never be forgotten. She spoke often of kindness and spoken often of love, she spoke often of savoring the small things, she ate her ice-cream slowly and smiled after every spoonful, she enjoyed photos, she took pictures every time she came over, in fact she has an album of every month of every year of my siblings and I and also of her children, she never stop loving even when her heart stop pumping, her body went cold, nothing I ever felt before, I was angry when she passed, she was my first hero.
ReplyDeleteI didn’t mean to really write all this, just came out and never really wrote or spoke about my Virginia. I need to tell you that don’t ever stop fighting, you are a hero, not only to me. I don’t know what it’s like to be you, to feel shitty on sunny days, but you can do this. I never doubt you, screw this cancer stuff! Yes you are truly, a rarity.