Prefrontal Madness

Or perhaps the evils of an idle mind....

Speculation makes us human, but is a slippery slope when it comes to happiness. So because I have had some minor aches and discomfort on my right side - yes, where my tumors are located - and I have had time to ponder the possible reasons, I have struggled the last several weeks with angst and uncertainty. Sleep has been dark and unsettling, my perception melancholic and heavy. Christine quips, "Bitch at me, wait and see," while I add "Bitch at you, talk to Dr. Zu." And so I retreated into this funk until today when I saw Dr. Zu which helped to allay some of my fears.

Here's the scoop on my health - (it's good!):

Generalized aches are difficult to pin down and could easily be side effects from my medication. Dr. Zu is pleased that I am eating well (ain't no doubt about that!) and am physically active.

It is time for my regular CT scan (every three months), so Dr. Zu will schedule one before I see him on July 27, 2015.

My WBC is good.

My platelets are a bit low, which may explain some of my fatigue.

I had my monthly Sandostatin shot.

I made a commitment to Christine not to let my angst get the better of me so I will no longer "bitch at her" and " let my anxieties defer." It is tough enough to live with me never mind when I am sullen! It isn't easy living with cancer. But as Christine says, "No one gave us a handbook on how to deal. We're wingin' it."

I start my summer job tomorrow. I will tutor four hours a week at the SDSU Community Reading Clinic.

And I will continue to stay active - running and walking regularly.

Please send positive thoughts our way.

With love,

Andrew